first things first, i just got back from this amazing trip. with 3 of the most amazing people that i know & probably will ever know. it was a grand excursion & it desperately needed to happen. this hasn't been the best year. so a vacay was in order.
the sad thing about it is... u spend 4 days on this beautiful island. soaking up the sun & surf without a care in the world. not doing a damn thing. living the life. then ur forced to come back home. back to reality. i spent my first day back from ocracoke in this dark little hole of depression. so sad about something that i couldnt put my finger on. i was on the bi-polar express all day long. happy and chill one minute & then so mad at the world the next. the only thing i could come up with was the trip itself had done it to me. not necessarily the vacation itself, but the fact that it was just a vacation and not a "real life" thing for me. the second u get used to ur new digs on this AMAZING island, living in ur fantasy bubble, ur thrown back to the real world. where u have to work and do stuff. it's really not fair. i just snarled thinking about it...
i guess the whole point of this rant is that we should all live on our own personal island all the time if possible. if that means literally, then great, but not all of us can afford that. but, if we can put ourselves there metaphorically, then that might work as well. thats my new personal motto anyway. being away made me realize how happy i can be. & my goal is to maintain that sort of happiness. we spend too much time being sad about things that are out of our hands. im going to change that, or at least try too!
i love u
ps. i have pictures from the ocracoke adventure, coming soon!
pps. & a BIG ole promise for more updates. sometimes i forget i have a blog. so more updates are in order
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